Who really is in Control here?

I always thought of myself as a free and independent person. Someone who had a mind of my own, with my own opinions and very capable of making my own decisions. (Even though over the years, there have been far more wrong ones than any I got right.)

Initially, the concept of following God and especially hearing that He created me for His own purpose, sounded somewhat oppressive. I could never wrap my mind around why would I be created by someone just to be used for their gain. #DangerousThoughts

But when I started to delve deeper into the Word of God. I read more and more about the character of God. And the truth of God being Our Heavenly Father became rather apparent to me.

I learnt that like a father who loves, guides and takes care of his children. A father who provides, defends and fiercely protects those he loves, who disciplines and corrects his children, and leads them in a direction that will give them the best chance for a complete and fulfilled life and future, in the same way that father is, so is God.

After many personal failures, I came to the conclusion that I couldn’t do this on my own anymore. That there must be some truth to who really should have control over my life. And clearly from the choices I made, I was a clear and present danger to myself. I decided that my life was best kept in the hands of the One who created me. My life was safest, through the guidance of My Heavenly Father.

My life changed when I finally recognised that I was created by a God who had such great foresight, He knew before he creating me that I would fall. God already knew that one day I will fail, but yet, He went ahead and knit me together anyway.

But, God knew that eventually, I would come to understand the purpose of why I am here. He also knew He would still be able to use me in places where He needed someone with my capabilities, my brokeness and my willingness to be used for His glory. Because ain’t that the ultimate reason we do what we do, to bring glory and honour to His Name?

Can you imagine how mindblowing that is… To know that despite having so many shortcomings God still loves us. So much so, that He is willing to give us that second chance, sometimes third and even forth. (Common, you know how many times you were in need of forgiveness…) God always knew how my life would turn out. And this truth is one that gets me into a flood of tears everytime I think about it.

God gave plain ole me a second chance. I may not be famous or important, not by any means. But God knew that I was still someone He could use. Somewhere, someone would need to hear my story, my testimony, my message and actually be impacted by how incredible He is, that if He can change me, He can change anyone?

In our limited human knowledge and understanding we will never fully grasp the magnitude and the infinite wisdom of God.

But once you grasp it and start to believe that a loving and mighty God created you for His glory and purpose. Only then will you be free and confident to live your life as He has called and created you to. Ultimately God created it all. There is nothing that he does not know or consider. He was there in the beginning and He will be there at the end, so who do you think really is in control?

‘For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

Psalms 139:13

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. ‘

Psalms 139:14

‘For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord , “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’

Jeremiah 29:11